day two

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Had no idea the emotional pain all of this would entail. Again upon awakening a cigarette was my first thought that came to mind. Walked to the fridge for my Coke. Beginning again without my trusted friend to get things started. All went fairly well until about 2:00 this afternoon. Wanted a cigarette so bad didnt know what to do. Prayed and begged God to take away this craving. My son Robert came into my bedroom and held me while I cried. This part of my mind that was wanting the cigarette was running rampant. My son Robert took my phone from me and called my sponsor Kelly. She was very calming and guided me to theory that maybe I could work the 12 steps of my AA program on my addiction to tobacco. I read "Bills Story" in my big book of AA. I feel much calmer and more mentally capable of handling the next hour or two. I also spoke to several people from my home group that offered me strength and hope. Roberts Dad is going to come over and help us get the Christmas tree out of the attic  so I am going for now. Yay ! Day 2 Tobacco free is me!